Another Bad Day

I just been up and down on a roller coaster today. My mind wont stop thinking. He has had me so convinced that everything is my fault. I feel if I would of kept quiet and not asked questions and not get upset that he wasnt calling and talking to me that everything would be ok and we would still be together. I know he was very abusive but im so scared of being alone. We did have fun times and he did help me but there is more negatives then pros. My heart feels like it was ripped out. I know you all have said I havent done nothing wrong and that is him but its hard.Im trying to believe what you guys have been saying about not listening to him.  I still have to get my stuff out. He acts so happy im leaving. He is so cold to me. I have done so much for him and my mom has too. I dont know what more I could of done. I would buy him things and go without. I feel very used. Now he making money he dont need me. 7 of my years wasted.  I want to thank you all for the comments it means alot to me.